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Thursday, August 31st, 2006
10:49 pm	were to begin Gosh, were do you begin when it's been so long? My life is a complete, well i dunno the word to use, i go from day to day just praying that things will look up, and my dreams will come true! My dad met the woman, and there isnt anything that you can find right with her. she is one of those people who, well, you know, think that the world is about to crash right down on them, and they are dieing of disease they havent even invented.. yeah... i know! LOL. Oh well, she has another daddy to take care of her, my daddy! All i got to say is it must be nice to be only 28 years old and not have to worry about getting a job becuase you lucked into finding a pour sole to give you anything you want... talk about a spoild BRAT! In better news, James and i are still good, he is one of those guys that makes you feel good, but alas wanna punch in the face at the same time. I love him though, not like i love JIm MOrrison, but i do love him, we're hoping to be moving in with one another as soon as october, and i cant wait! I cant wait to get out of this house, it is too depressing to watch my dad get taken advantage of! I graduate from College this yr too! This is my LAST semister! Im so excitied, i never thought in a MILLION yrs that i would be doing it again, and here i am not very far when you think of where i've been! Other then that its the same old bullshit! But its my life, what more could you ask for! (Comment on this)
Friday, April 21st, 2006
7:06 pm	Whats new Well well.. then things come up they always go down... I feel in love with the most amazing man, only comes to find out he is nothign tight of a man, but rather a scared little boy afraid to turn on the flashlight, doubt all his flaws i still love him with all my heart! I got a new car, and still own little blue go me eh? other then that not much has happened, only one new pericing, and a lovely little Pam Andersen looking tattoo around my arm.. .i love it! Over the past few months I've become and acoholic, gosh do i love to drink. When i say Acholic Im being faseechious!... KT and i spend a lot of nights drinking the fuck out of VOdka, and wishing what might have been had things gone how we PLANNED! Other then that, things are happy go lucky! I cant wait for tomorrow, another day another adventure, and it is amazing to have this much thrill in my life right now! Gosh and do i love James M! I dont know where i would be with out him.... In fact, i think i would miss him more, if i had never met him! Well, Im out bitches! Keep in touch... SHit... I gots a cell... Peace out... Joz.... RIP MCP! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 15th, 2006
12:09 pm	Poem from 2001! In life we try so hard to believe,  That we are individuals, that we are unique,  So, why do we spend most of our time trying to locate? Our soles, our minds, and our individuality? We try to follow our peers. weither it's taking drugs or throwing back a few beers,  to be apart of the crowd, isnt that what we want? To be noticed? To be talked about? In a world based on apperance and how well you follow,  Isnt it crazy, the ones who say no, they're the ones we want.  Change! Those weird kids, our future. They know, they got the power, leaders not followers.  They are unique to you preppy kids they will not surrender. From Goth to Fag,  It's there soles you wont tag,  There in this world to promote change,  In this world there going to be the one's who gain. On the followers who do things to be cool,  There gaining on all those broken rules,  Next time you look at someone and thing there different.  Realize there the change, and your nothing different.  (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 12th, 2006
7:33 pm	SEX suvey 1. Name: Joslin Irene Potter 2. Age: 20 3. Gender: female 4. Favorite activity: Talking, Jumping on beds, driving, drinking! 5. Love, sex or fuck: Done all 3! 6. Have you ever had sex: More then once! 7. How often: My dream would be everyday, but i take it as i can get it! 8. Sexual preference: I perfer guys wit Blond hair, Green eyes, kinda chubby, he has to be a good kisser, and somewhat of a fighter! I 9. When was your first time:I was 16! 10. Did you like it: It was something that i thought was right to do at the time, i won't deny that i didn't like it, i just wish it would have been with someone else. 11. Lights on or off: When Im first meeting a person i like the lights off, that way the natural lighing from the moon or stars shining into my room choose where to shine and allow me to see. 12. Favorite place to do it: I love doing it in the car! the tighter the spot the more creative you have to get with positions your going to use, i also like it in hotel rooms, just because i can be as wild and friksy as i want. 13. Ever had a one-night stand:i try not to think of them as one night stands. 14. If so how many: ..... 2 15. Ever done it in a public place: Well, if a korn maze counts then yes! 16. If yes where: Korn Maze, people's basements, random rds, driveways! 17. Would you ever think about doing it in public place: I would love to have sex on a roof top, or on the playground on the swing! 18. How many partners have you had: I've had eight 19. What is your favorite sexual act: Foreplay! 20. How often do you masturbate: I guess Im one of the lucky ones, I've always had someone to count on when it came to feeding my needs. 21. Is sex wrong unless you’re married: iI dont think so, but i do think that waiting until your married would be the best and most magical option. 22. Do you sleep naked: I have. but no! 23. Do you have safe sex: I play God everytime i have sex. I am what they call a "birth control" abuser. I go out and have unprotected sex just becuase i can, and NO it isn't safe, someday I'll pay! Karma's a bitch! 24. How often do you engage in sexual acts (in a week): Depends, if Im seeing my guy or not, i try to have sex as much as possible! I used to have sex 2 or 3 times a day, but latly, that hasnt been my luck. 25. Are you loud in bed: Only if Im drunk or he really knows what he's doing. 26. Do you orgasm every time: No usually, i enjoy the sensation more then the whole process it's self. 27. If not how often do you: i don't know 28. Do you like to be on top: Sometimes, most the time no, becuase my hip always locks, but if Im given that oppurtinity then yes! 29. Would you try new and different sexual positions: Im up for anything as long as it doesnt envolve it going anywhere but where it belongs! 30. Do you look at your partner in the eyes while doing it: Not normally! I choose to put my mind in another place, somewhere i know that makes me happy. And sometimes, im just thinking about Jim Morrison. 31. After you’re done do you cuddle or go right to sleep:  Im not, but if the guy wants to cuddle with me Im going to eat up that attention. 32. Afterwards do you get dressed again: Majority of the time, yes. 33. Would you strip for someone other than your partner: If it was for some serious cash. 34. Is there anything better than sex: Maybe Taco Bell... JK! There is nothing better then sharing something sexual and magical with another person.. as holly would say... its natural. 35. Do you have the TV on while your doing it: not normally. 36. Do you think of other things while your doing it: Sometimes i think about Jim Morrison. 37. Do you have music going while you’re at it: I like it sometimes, it makes it feel romantic and sets a pace. 38. How passionate are you: Depends on how drunk or in love I am with the person.   39. How aggressive are you: If were played lion and bear, and i get the chance to be the lion, it is a battle, and let the best one win. 40. Do you like it ruff: Only if he is chanting along with it. 41. Where would you never do it: In a portapottie! 42. Have you ever been caught having sex: Twice. 43. Have you ever gotten pregnant: Unsure, from the research I've done online a lot of girls on BC get pregnant and just lose them in the first couple months it could have happened! and a fre months ago i thought i was dieing for 2 weeks Im still unsure about that! 44. Ever had a pregnancy scare: Once or Twice! 45. Have you been tested for STD’s: YES! 46. If so what kind: Everything! FEMALES 47. Do you use a vibrater: no 48. If so, does it work for you: n/a 49. Do you use your hand: I cant see how that would even remotly turn someone on, but no! 50. Would you rather a guy help you: Hell YEah! 51. Does fingering satisfy you: Depends on how ruff they are! 52. What is the best way to show love: Kissing the neck, touching and carassing everywhere, soft passionate kisses. 53. Have you ever been in love with a guy you have had sex with: A couple. MALES 54. How often do you masturbate: 55. Do you watch porno while doing it: 56. Do you look at anything to get you excited: 57. How fast do you cum: 58. Can you cum more than once in one session: 59. Do you take your pants off to masturbate: 60. Where is the best place to pleasure you yourself:  BOTH 61. Have you ever had sex in a shower: Yeah it was nice, the water was warm, there were lots of bubbles and we were just a slipping and a sliding. 62. A pool: yes 63. Is skinny dipping attractive: I dunno, depends, I've done it a few times with different people, its alright if your drunk i guess. 64. What is a definite no-no while engaged in the act: Assuming that you will just get off... farting, burping, um... carring on a conversation... 65. What is the grossest thing that your partner could do while your having sex: farting! Puking! 66. Has your partner ever done this: Not my current partner. 67. What is the grossest thing you can do while having sex: Fart, burp in your mouth, have large amounts of spit and deposting in your partners mouth! 68. Have you ever done this: no 69. What’s the worse thing to say while doing it: Someone else's name. 70. Have you said this: Yea, but i dont think that heard. 71. Have you ever had sex drunk: I perfer to be drunk! 72. Is it better when you’re drunk: Naw, it can make it more exciting, but the best is when your truly in love. 73. Do songs about sex turn you on: um... Posion by alice cooper turns me on! 74. Would you have sex with more than one person in one night: Yes. 75. Would you tell your partner if you did: No why would i tell them? 76. Would you have more than one partner of other sexes: no 78. Would you mind being videoed: ew 79. Would your partner know that you were taping the two of you: if i ever did it, yes 80. Would you watch it with other people who were not involved: I would hope it would remain private! 81. If so would the one involved be there: no 82. Would he or she know there was a tape: yeah 83. Would you ever sell such a tape: no. 84. Would you take naked pictures of yourself and then sell them: Yeah all the time! 85. Would you ever post such pictures where other people could see them: No. 86. How much would you sell them for: Not gonna happen 87. Do you think that it’s fair to your partner that you do this: NO i Dont! 88. What would you do if you found pictures of your partner on the web: be pissed 89. Do you have any playboys: no 90. What would you do if you found your partner had playboys: be angry. 91. Do you feel like you have been a bad partner: Sometimes, like i know what I've done in the past is mean and not right but who is to say that Im doing the wrong thing you know? 92. Do you like to get spanked: NO 93. How would you describe your sex life up till now: These last few times that I've had sex have been amazing, I've never had a guy who put me first and waiting for me to do what i need to do, the speed is just right, the kisses are in all the right hot spots.... oh.. yummy... 94. Do you go to parties to find sex: I have. 95. Do you ever get it on right there: Nope. 96. How turned on do you have to be before you can’t stop yourself: Yea! 97. Is there anything you wouldn’t do for sex: I wouldnt make myself look cheap! 98. Have you given things up for sex: Yes, in high school mostly. 99. Are there limits to sex: The sky maybe. 100. Do you ever have sex just for your partner: Most the time i hope there is some sort of agreement. 101. Has sex ever meant nothing to you: Once. 102. Have you ever regretted having sex with someone: There are no regrets, i did it, and it's history... 103. Have you ever had an abortion: nope. 104. If so do you regret it now: --- 105. Do people call you a tramp: Just a Whore. 106. Would you strip for a living: hell no. 107. Have you gone and watched stripers: nope 108. Do you find it degrading: I think that everyone has to make a living somehow, and if your that proud of your body, then i guess go for it, i could never do it, i would lose alot of respect for myself. 109. Have you ever been raped: no 110. If so was it someone you knew: --- 111. Is rape ever ok: If it's with you and your parnter and your pretending it to be somekind of game. 112. If so when: um never? 113. Do you know anyone who was raped: Yno 114. If so did you, or someone you know go to court about it: i don't know 115. If yes did you win: --- 116. How far would you go on the first date: Depends on if they come home with me or not! 117. How far is to far: Sex in the morining! 118. How turned on are you right now: not at all, im hungry! 119. Has this got you thinking about sex at all: To be honest yes! Makes me miss my guy~ 120. Was this the worst quiz you ever took: no (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 8th, 2006
12:58 am	Virginity I started thinking about a certain someone and it has made me think...  When someone calls you a "Virgin" in this day and age it's like saying that you have an STD or something even worse. I mean no one can tell you that you can't have sex, and no one can tell you to wait, everyone gets that "feeling" of knowing that Im doing the right thing, at the right time and place.  I mean a lot of us get caught up in that feeling that someone loves me enough to show me the MAXIMUM amount of affection, i guess what makes me mad, is that a lot of "couples" think by having sex it will improve there relationship, when in all reality, sex is the number one reason couples let things get bad before calling it quits, becuase of that attachment.  I think that girls who wait can think more clear and make better decisions. I mean personally, my mind is always clouded becuase i dont know which way to turn becuase i have had that sexual contact, and who and what do i want from it? What i wouldnt give to meet someone and not know what it is like... Just knowing that he is cute, and if we start dating, looking forward to him "maybe" being that one guy in a million that i share my most percious gift of all too...  I dont think alot of guys/girls see it as a "gift". I think it is more somewhat of a burden, you know, if i dont then people think im scared, and if i do, then Im have an "image" to obtain. I have to laugh because i was oblivious to my feelings about sex and Im 20 years old.  Now i have an addiction, like it was some kind of Drug, and here i am wishing for it to be mine again! I wish i knew what made people just jump into making that life changing decision, and what and why it is so impossible to wait unitl your married, and why it is pressured to much among teens!  Current Mood: angry Current Music: nothing compares to you! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 7th, 2006
10:53 pm	A New Touch   God leaned over and touched my bed, No soul will lie with you if motives are left unsaid, “Come Child” be brave, You’ll only find weakness in a lover, who’s willing to stay!   I gazed around; my mind began to dream, Who’s this hero? What’s his story? He wears the mask; his dreams resembles misery, He looks deeply into my eyes; a new uncalled for feeling comes over me,   Some are challenging, some I’ve always dreamed, Some are yet to be seen! As darkness falls my sole is filled with hate, Why didn’t anyone tell me that love is a word, and people seek fate?   Why our are minds so selfish, and our hearts so sure, That I seek the approval of many men before my heart is pure! I'm frantic as I run foolishly from the words that are left unsaid, I cut my flesh to know I'm still alive, as death breathes upon my neck!   I walk alone down the trail and choose not to look back, For everything happens for a reason, though my parents had forgotten to mention that. I belong to no one, my dreams with no one to be shared, Tears fall to the Earth while the lava inside my heart evaporates them in the air.   God leans over and gently kisses my forehead, “I have plans for you child, ignore your addiction,” “Awake” my child, Once again, I'm lying here with a stranger in my bed. So, I’ve been thinking on the topic even more, I wish I knew love outside of sex, I think about it a lot now, what if I hadn’t been the girl who pulled her panties down for the hot guys, and would have it made a difference?   I think sex is like a “downer” in a relationship, it makes people feel obligated to please there partners, and if they don't get that thrill, that wanton of having sex turns you into some kind of monster, and you go out searching for it, longing for that one piece. I cant honestly say that I’ve ever felt the sensation of “making love” I mean yeah I’ve loved guys, and had sex with them, and that’s just it, I HAD sex with them! It doesn’t make me feel like a different person, the one guy that I’ve ever truly loved took sex and turned it into some kind of mother fucking game. It just pisses me off at the same time, what am I supposed to think? I took something so magical and so beautiful and turned it into a fire breathing hell. I’ve turned it into this infatuation, which my minds riots in never ending scandals.  i dunno! Peace out! Tink   (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 25th, 2006
4:40 pm	The begining of the week.. hmm... where should i start? So i seen Preston yesterday, he is so awesome, and we talked... and talked a little more, it made me feel good when he just put all his attention on my when everyone else was screaming and yelling about the race that was on yesterday!  He's commen over when he gets out of work tomorrow, probably around eight-thirty or nine in the morning. THEN... Kaytee gets to come over and meet him, Im so excited, its one of those things where you really like the person, but for example, Kaytee doesnt know him, so hopefully, she'll get a vibe and shit before she gets to know him, kinda like i did when we pulled into William J's drive way and later that night! I told her... Hopefully she'll tell me...  This week I've never had so much planned to go out and do something, were going to a Basketball game with another couple on Thursday, Friday out to dinner with Holly's parents, and my Grandparents, and the "love birds"! Saturday i have to work, but he insists that he is commen over to see me that night, and then Sunday he's gone! I love it, it keeps my mind of a lot of things and he's so ambicious that i dont know how to handle from sitting around and watching video games to someone who wants to go out and be adventurous.  But like Kaytee says, the wick of the candle doesnt burn forever!  Other then that, Kaytee's been sick, but she starts working really soon, Im so excited for her first day, and the fact we get first dibs on newly rentails, everything seems to be going so awesome, i just feel like a kiddy rollar coaster, I have all these little hills, and suddenly there's someone willing to take the ride with me.  Joslin He wants me to meet his mom? Think it's too soon? Is it a good sign? Current Mood: Need for Speed Current Music: Love of a lifetime (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006
1:17 pm	A New Start Well, a new beginning has begun... I came home from work on Tuesday and Holly asked me to attend her brother's 21ist birthday party! I was a little weird to go at first because I dont know anyone in her family. But, my father and holly are getting married July 7th 2007, i figured it would be good bonding time. We left and stop to pick up some Jack on the way... I walk into the bar, and notice this guy, he ends up being her brother's best friend... OMG... Ladies hold on to your panties, i felt guilty for checking out another guy and went and broke things of with Chris! I miss him and everything, i mean i do love him, but like i told him, if my heart is looking and feeling "wanted" by another why souldnt i go out and see what he has to offer. Im not trying to jynx it, but were going out Sunday, and then who knows. Wish me luck!  Tinkerbell... p.s. 5'5, about a buck thirty, blueish green eyes, and pericings!                                                                                     Sounds Yummy! Current Mood: Smily Current Music: Crazy, Aerosmith (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, February 13th, 2006
12:02 am	blue eyez Blue eyes crying Mascara smeared to hell Cheeks black drying And I start to yell   Broken heart shattered Thrown in my face Memories of us scattered All over the place   Thought I was over you It's been a long time Now I can't stay sober Knowing you were former mine   Now these blue eyes are lying When I'm holding someone new I should just give up trying Until I'm back with you   But you'll never take me back Because this fate you'll never know Now my eyes are running black And today it's time for me to go (Comment on this)
Monday, February 6th, 2006
6:22 pm	What a man, What a Man! Dear Readers, Have you ever felt like you were just miles away from yourself, and no matter how fast or how hard you keep looking, you just can't seem to find where you've been hiding? Like a princess, your sleeping, dreaming of things that you want to accomplish in your life, just laying there waiting for your prince to choose you, kiss and wake you up? Have you ever felt like there was more beyond the stars, more then just love? I dont know where to turn, to look up or down, all i know is that Im here, and im waiting to be awakened! Joslin Alas, last night, i was kissed by an Angel! (Yummy) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 29th, 2006
9:43 pm	Lips of an Angel Honey why you callin me so late It's kinda hard to talk right now Honey why you cryin Is everything ok I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud Well my guys in the next room Sometimes I wish he was you I guess we never really moved on It's really good to hear your voice Sayin my name It sounds so sweet Comin from the lips of an angel Hearin those words It makes me weak And I Never want to say goodbye But Damn you make it hard to be faithful With the lips of an angel It's funny that you're callin me tonight And yes I dreamt of you too Does he know your talkin' to me? Will it start a fight? No, I don't think he has a clue Well, my guy's in the next room Sometimes I wish he was you I guess we never really moved on It's really good to hear your voice Sayin my name It sounds so sweet Comin from the lips of an angel Hearin those words It makes me weak And I Never want to say goodbye But damn you make it hard to be faithful With the lips of an angel It's really good to hear your voice Sayin my name it sounds so sweet Comin from the lips of an angel Hearin those words It makes me weak Never want to say goodbye But girl you make it hard to be faithful With the lips of an angel Honey why you callin me so late? (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 25th, 2006
10:52 am	Surveys... try em He Loves You For You When it comes to your body, your guy hardly notices It's nothing to do with the way you look... He's just has really fallen for you But make sure to stay sexy - keep the chemistry going strong! Does He Only Love You For Your Body? You Are a Very Bad Girl You are 10% Good and 90% Bad As they say, good girls go to heaven and bad girls go everywhere! You make most bad girls look like angels - and have a hell of a time along the way. Are You a Good Girl or a Bad Girl? It's 40% Love and 60% Lust You and your guy are hot for one another, but you've also got a bit of a love thing going on. Is It Lust or Love? Your True Sign Is Aries Daring Friendly Energetic Risk Taking Dynamic Daredevil Always on an Adventure Without a Care in the World Quick-Witted and Quick-Tempered What's Your True Sign? You Have Him Totally Hooked Your guy is all yours - and happily so. He loves being around you, and he totally sees you as a couple. It looks like you two have a great future together - if you want it! Do You Have Him Hooked? You *Could* Be a Good Girlfriend But right now, you're definitely not! Maybe your guy is not Mr. Right... And you're secretly scared of getting serious It's time to move on - to someone you want to treat well Are You a Good Girlfriend? (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, January 23rd, 2006
11:50 pm	Blind I was young but I wasn't naive            I watched helpless                            ***~As you turn around to leave~***                                                                                And still I have the pain I have to carry                   A past so deep.................                                          That even you could not bury if you tried After all this time I never thought we'd be here Never thought we'd be here                                                              When my love for you was blind But I couldn't make you see it                                                              Couldn't make you see it                                                        That I loved you more                                     Then you will ever know And part of me died                                                   When I let you go                     I would fall asleep                                                     Only in hopes of dreaming                                                                                     That everything                   Would be like it was before                                                          But nights like this                                                                                          It seems are slowly fleeting They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor                                          After all this time I never thought we'd be here                                Never thought we'd be here When my**love**for you was blind                                        But I couldn't make you see it                                                                              Couldn't make you see it!!!!!!!!!!                           That I loved you more Then you will ever know                        And part of me died When I let you go After all this why                                Would you ever want to leave Maybe you could not believe it That my love for you was blind But I couldn't make you see it Couldn't make you see it That I loved you more Then you will ever know And part of my died When I let you go (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 22nd, 2006
5:04 pm	Survey Take the time to fill this out honestly! Then send it to your friends to amaze them!     ABOUT YOU:   First Name: Joslin Middle Name: Irene      Last Name: Potter Other: Tinkerbell, Speedy, Pumpkin, Love, babe, Potter Age: 20 Height: 4’11 Weight: n//a Number of tattoos: 5 Number of piercing: 15 Best Qualities: My Blue-Berry Blue, frostbitten eyes, and my J-Lo Booty! Optimistic or Pessimistic: Um… A little of both, depends on the situation, and my opinion of the matter. You’re Parents: Douglas J and Jodi Lynn Which one do you resemble most? I look mostly like my dad, but I see a lot my mom shine threw, mostly with how I carry myself, and my lusting blue eyes…   Favorites:   Favorite Food: Turtle Favorite Movie: Sleeping Beauty Favorite TV show: Next Favorite color: Blue Favorite Actor/Actress: Josh Lucas Favorite Band: Limp Bizkit Favorite Solo Artist: Kelly Clarkson, Eminem, BS, and Madonna Favorite Car: 1971 Chevelle SS, 454 Favorite Coin: A dime, because it is small like me, and worth more then a lot of pennies in this world! Favorite Fast Food: Taco Bell Favorite Restaurant: Uno’s Favorite Cartoon growing up: I remember Full House… the Smirfs? Favorite Sandwich: PB & J Favorite Pudding: pistachio Favorite Soda: Grape and Pepsi   Your Significant Other:   First: Christopher Middle: Michael Last: Miller Age: 21 Height: 5 7 Weight: um… 210 maybe.. Best Qualities: His captivating eyes, his delicate, scrumptious lips, mischievous hands, and his compelling mind and thoughts, he’s bi-polar, the way he shakes his blistering, spicy A$$, I love his tuff guy attitude and how he makes me feel like I'm queen of the world.. Where did you meet your significant other? My best friend in the world was speaking to this malicious guy named Joe, and I didn’t want her to go alone, so I lied to Andrew and told him we were going to the mall, when really we spent elongated, dreadful hours getting ready to go to the club, we talked to Joe all the way there and he claimed he was going to be bringing his “Buff” cousin Chris, but they had to drop of his daughter first.. so we waited finally, when they pulled up, it was like an aurora of light around his body and the song, “I just died in your arms tonight” was playing in my head, I had to have him, needless to say he is mine… and I thank our friends. What caught your eye about your significant other? The way he carried himself, when he got out of that car and was walking towards him I just couldn’t let my eyes stray away from him, he seemed so positive, and my mouth just dripped in satisfaction I had to make him mine.   How long have you been “Happily” Together?  A year and 2 months Your wedding and “Hunny-Moon” was where? Well, were not married yet, but Chris and I plan to go to Japan or Paris for our hunny-moon and see what other countries have to offer. How many attended the wedding: Well were not married yet, but our dream wedding will be outside probably at my house, and in Chesaning, because he has family from: Sagnasty, Lansing, and Matten.. Between the two families, I'm hoping for more then 180 people… but whos to say? You song you shared was: My wedding song, “Love of a lifetime” Firehouse. How much longer do you think your relationship will beat the odds? I would love to say forever, I took some time off, and when I wasn’t seeing his as much I knew in my heart that all the questions I had been pondering and wondering what if’s were gone, I have finally found MY love of a life time, and I can only hope and pray each and everyday that we grow together. What are the most intriguing qualities about your significant other? Chris in himself is an interesting character, I love his peppery, brown eyes, the way his nose hits mine when we kiss, I love how his lips aren’t supper huge and kiss so softly. I love it that he isn’t afraid of his body, when he wears his thongs and dances around, making me feel like I got my own stripper at home. I love how he cuddles and makes me feel safe at night.. I love him. What are the most disturbing qualities about your significant other? His Gusty Farts and Habits If you could have anyone in this world, would it be him or her? Well, I used to think there was only one match for me, only one person who could foe fill my life to the fullest, but lately I’ve realized that what is done is done, and there is no “one” person for everyone, because everyone is different and there is always going to be something wrong with someone who isn’t you… no one is ever going to be perfect, but I think I’ve come damn close. If you broke up tomorrow, what would be the number one reasons for the deed? Pot!   Your relationship:   Is it based on?   Sex: Well, it is nice to have I won’t deny… But I think I got a lot of that out in High School, we wont talk to much about who they all were or when these nasty events took place, but all of them cannot compare to the love and passion we have in our semen filled sheets. Appearance: Looks are good, I want to have cute, scorching children, and with Chris I think it is humanly possible, they always say two ugly people make a cute baby, but damnit… Chris is the hottest thing on the earth, and he’s going to have some hot kids… Watch out ladies! Popularity: Um… not so much anymore, I did that shit in high school to gain respect… well all I have is memories and a nasty reputation. Jealously: Naw, Chris is all mine and nothing to be jealous about. Happiness: Chris made me really happy when I was around him and I can’t be happier to be with him each and everyday or our lives. Fate: Fate is such a nasty word! But I do indeed believe that we were brought together by fate. Friends: Katie and Joe Fear: Fear is what keeps us together, he’s crazy and I like it. Age: im not getting any younger Love:  I love him; he loves me, that is what a relationship takes, along with a lot of other factors. Similarities: Were both bullheaded! Pregnancy/Kids: Thank God no! I would feel so connote if Chris was only with me for a kid, that’s trapping and I don't believe in it, I throw pity to girls who think a baby solves all the problems, and I throw even more pity to a guy who doesn’t have the balls to leave her because of baby! Parents: My parents would rather me be with someone else, and we all know who, but were better of as friends not lovers, I learned the hard way last summer when Andrew caught me sleeping with other people.   Are you:   Hungry: always Thirsty For some hard liquor Scared of the dark God a night light right by the bed Ambiguous: Sometimes Sarcastic: Only when im tired Moody: Certain times of the month Pleased: There are a certain of things in the past I wish I could change but as of now there is no where else that I would rather be then here in Saginaw, Michigan with my lover by my side. Aggressive: I have an anger problem that gets worse with {Whiskey and Tequila} where I want to just hit and fight with everyone I try to avoid that in my life. Complete: When I'm married with Children and finically stable I will be complete Procrastinator: far from it, when I want something done, I want it now and it is done that second… like peircings and tattoos Perfectionist: NO   Last but not least,     When was the last time you told your parents you loved them? My dad today, and mom yesterday when I called her. When was the last time you went on a family vacation? It’s been years, not since we all ventured to the lake and rented the cabin. When was the last time you went to a family dinner? For my Birthday Do you have any kids: no but I want 4, right now I'm letting my cousins shine with there kids, I want to be out of college and give them everything they want, need, and I  mean I love them, Andréa has the most beautiful eyes, and Alex is so damn smart.. I don't know the other one, they don't really come around, and hey that’s there game… soon enough… I’ll have my own to “SHOW OFF” to my family.. There names: Girls: Lyllie-Ann Joyce or Rozlynn Marie…. Boys: Rollen Douglas or Maverick MacGyver, Rock Morgan… Which parent skills do you mostly represent, mother or fathers? probably my mothers, she was so strict with us that it made me who I am today, I want my kids to have a good head on there shoulders, there are to many people dropping out of High School, teenagers having babies, I don't understand, I don't want my kids to think High School is a big accomplishment, I want them to think School and then college.. people don't realize they have there whole lives to get married and have families, its sad that someday im going to be supporting all these high school baby making drop outs it kind of pisses me off, im working my ass of, and for what?  When your child becomes a teen-ager, will they resent you? never What mistakes do you think most parents make? Trying to tell there kids how it is going to be, what to do and telling them there mistakes. In your opinion, how should parents battle Drugs and Alcohol with Kids? Drugs are a  hard thing, for a long time I got mixed up in the wrong direction, but I’ve managed to get Chris and myself clean so we can have better jobs and a better future, let them form there own opinions. The school does enough in telling them the “bad” What will you do different?  I want to be one of those parents whom allows there children to make and choose there destiny. I think one of life’s lesions that we all have failed and missed were the mistakes. We are taught that what we have done is bad, and I don't want my children to feel that way, I want them to look at it as a new direction in life. Who am I to say that they are wrong, when really there thinking of another way of doing things? I want my kids to learn on there own and to confide in me when they really want to. In life were alone, and alone we shall master it. Current Music: Love of a lifetime (Comment on this)
Friday, January 6th, 2006
10:30 pm	hello Hey everyone, whats new? not to much here, there have been a series of events that keep my life rollen from day to day. new years eve was fun i got to have a heart-to-heart with Aunt Lynda, which was nice, she opened my eyes to the family that i am marrying into, it was an intense conversation but a nice one at that. I came home, and chris and i went to a neighbor hood party, where we procedded to get wasted, and come home to have, what i guess you would call, making love? That next day i went a played Euchre at his families, i took 2nd place! Won my cash back and still had a little fun on top of that we got to see Chris's look-a-like father, he is doing good, looks like the same old charlie i was introduced to last yr! He's wised up so he says, and hopefully, like father, like son. Other than that, nothing, Chris and i been keeping busy if you can honestly find it in you heart to be true! We've been traveling, shopping, and he even came to my house to spend the night! WOW lucky me! i dont know what it is i have done to be so fucken special... But... "Meet the Barkers" my fav show is on, and my lucky lover is down stairs getting the gossip... Dustin.. problems... who would have thought? Joslin (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 4th, 2006
7:51 pm	Top 10 Mah Top 10 lyrics of 2005! 10. Hilary Duff, "Fly" "In a moment everything can change Feel the wind on your shoulder For a minute all the world can wait  Let go of your yesterday      Can you hear it calling?             Can you feel it in your soul?                         Can you trust this longing and take control?" 9.Brittany Spears, "Everytime" "I may have made it rain , Please forgive me  My weakness caused you pain And this song's my sorry       At night I pray               That soon your face will fade away And everytime I try to fly, I fall  Without my wings, I feel so small  I guess I need you, baby And everytime I see you in my dreams  I see your face, you're haunting me I guess I need you, baby" 8. Backstreet Boys, "Incomplete" Voices tell me I should carry on But I am swimming in an ocean all alone Baby, my baby It’s written on your face You still wonder if we made a big mistake I've tried to go on like I never knew you I’m awake but my world is half asleep I pray for this heart to be unbroken But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete        I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go                     I don’t wanna make you face this world alone                                  I wanna let you go (alone) 7. LeAnn Rimes, "Probably wouldn't be this way," I probably wouldn't be this way   I probably wouldn't hurt so bad         I never pictured every minute without you in it                       Oh, you left so fast                                  Sometimes I see you standing there                                       Sometimes it's like I'm losing touch                                             Sometimes i feel that i'm so lucky                                                     To have had the the chance to love this much                                                              God, give me a moments grace                                                                          Cause if i'd never seen your face I probably wouldnt be this way! 6.) LeAnn Womack, "Ashes by now"                         Baby, I can't go through this again                         I don't need to go down, more than i've already been                         Just like a wildfire, you're running all over town                         As much as you burn me baby                          I should be ashes by now                        The moment of pleasure just never do last                      They're gone like a suitcase full of your past                                     Long gone and in a hurry   5. Alania Grace, "Black roses Red" Can I ask you a question please? Promis you won't laugh at me? Honestly Im standing here afraid I'll be betrayed... as twisted as it seems I onlt fear love when its in my dreams, so let in the morning light and let the darkness fade away... Can you turn my black roses red? Drowning in my lonliness, how long must i hold my breath? So much emptyness inside i could fill the deepest sea! I reach to the moon as the stars look on, one more yr has come and gone... time to let your love rain down on me! 4. DHT, "listen to your heart!"  Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yeah They're swept away and nothing is what it seems The feeling of belonging to your dreams                                           Listen to your heart                                              When he's calling for you                                                   Listen to your heart                                                      There's nothing else you can do                                                          I don't know where you're going                                                                 And I don't know why                                                                     But listen to your heart                                                                            Before you tell him goodbye 3.) "Bow Wow & Ciara" Like you! And every time I think about you (I cry) When you ride when you call when you come I (ride) Your love is a-mazing to me Can't wait til I see you (I wanna be wit you again) And every time you're out on the road (I make a trip) And whenever I'm doing a show (Don't you forget) That I'm your (main chick) Who got that (game chick) One and the (same chick) The one you can hang with                    I ain't neva had nobody show me all the things that you done showed me                             And the special way I feel when you hold me                                        We gone always be together baby that's what you told me                                                  And I believe it (Cause I ain't neva had nobody do me like u) 2. Jessica Simpson, "Sweetist Sin" Can you imagine us making love? The way it would feel the first time that we touched. Can you think of it, the way I dream of it? I want you to see it like I’m seeing it.It’s a picture of perfection…The vision of you and I…Your lips upon my lips,Can you just picture this?Your finger tips on my finger tips.Your skin upon my skin…Would be the sweetest sin. That would be the sweetest sin. 1.) Kelly Clarkson, "Behind these hazel Eyez" Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me         I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong                  Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right                          Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong         Now I can't breathe, no I can't sleep                       I’m barely hanging on Here I am, once again              I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend                      Just thought you were the one                             Broken up, deep inside                                But you won't get to see the tears I cry          Behind these hazel eyes I told you everything, opened up and let you in                   You made me feel alright, for once in my life                             Now all that’s left of me is what I pretend to be                                        So together, but so broken up inside Cause I can’t breathe, no I can’t sleep                                                        I’m barely hanging on Swallow me, then spit me out                For hating you, I blame myself                            Seeing you, it kills me now                                  No, I don’t cry on the outside anymore                                                      Anymore     Current Mood: amused Current Music: incomplete (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 28th, 2005
8:28 pm	Update Hey! Well not much is going on, unless you include work, work, and sleep.. i feel like my days are a never ending battle to see how long i can keep my eyes open. maybe i should look into speeders I switched from Nextel to Sprint... BIG MISTAKE! These phones are nice, and have cameras and shit, but they suck for service.. i hate them.. i wish i wouldnt have never bothered! IT sucks! and i let the damn people talk me into keeping them... Friday is my birthday.. 20.. woopy.. not really.. i plan to spend the day with my dad, after all my heart is beating becuase he and my mother.. well you know.. made me.. well im out.. Joslin (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 14th, 2005
11:46 pm	Forest filled Dreams Im lost in the forest of dreams, Were darkness fills my memories, and foefillment is beyond obscene, My heart runs ignorantly between the trees, guiding me along the lonesome paths, I look to the sky, my delusions are of those my mind mocks yet forever laughs, if your scared you can hold my hand as i enter into the darkness. For the dark does not mean rancorous, but rather smiles with devilish kindness, i curtsey to the animals of the night, they are generous, amiable, and good dispite there rusty illusions, there violent mirth follows my laughter as i run, looking for my spellbinding perception, this lightless adventure is always vague in my mind, for this hazadous occation, for it is only dark for a ticklish amount of time! The trimphant, my forest of welcoming indiscretion, laughing threw the clouded trails, sneering my way threw the devastation, i feel perlpexed, as i scamper threw out the forest, Faster and faster, i hear your punctilious creaming of qurotest. Suddenly these gloomy paths are no longer my friends, the laughter i once danced around and shared, turns to hideous screams into the wind, I dont know which way to turn, or where i've already been? His charming face fills the sky, his words more seemly as the thunder rolls. Open you eyes my love, and to my muddled mine, Im where I've always known, A dream, Im lying in my bed, is it my imgination, or my mind foefilling the unsaid!                               joslin potter { 12-14-06} (1 Comment |Comment on this)
11:17 pm	Survey Take this survey about your High School memories. If you're still in hs answer for the present. 1) Where did you graduate from and what year? CHESANING UNION HIGH SCHOOL 2004 2)Did you have school pride? I ALWAYS WORE BLACK AND ORANGE, AND MADE SURE I SHOWED MY PRIDE BY BEING HIGH OR DRUNK AT FRIDAY FOOTBALL GAMES.. !!!! GO INDIANS !!!! 3) Was your Prom a night to remember? LETS SEE, GETTING DRESSED, RUNNING LATE, SHITTY ASS FOOD, PICTURES WERE HOTT, UM... THEN TO THE CASINO... AND TO WORK THE NEXT DAY.. I COULD HAVE BEEN A LOT BETTER HAD I NOT BEEN WITH YOU-KNOW-WHO! 4) What was your fav. song you danced to the night of PROM? I DIDNT DANCE, I BEARLY MADE IT IN THERE 5) Do you own all 4 Yearbooks? YES AND THEY ARE ALL SIGNED 6) Do you remember the First CD you ever bought? HMM...NO DOUBT, TRAGIC KINGDOM.. I LOVE THAT DONT SPEAK SONG.. {JP N CC} 7)What was your favorite Movie in High School? THE DOORS TRIBUTE 8) What was your number 1 choice of College in HS? I DIDNT WANT TO GO, I WANT TO PURSUE A CARREER IN HAIR, BUT ALAS... I ATTENED DELTA 9) What radio station did you jam out to in highschool? 102.5 10) Were you involved in any organizations or clubs? STONERS USA... BEER DRINKERS OF AMERICA? 11)What was your fav class in High School? MR BAISES MYTHOLOGY CLASS OR MR FORSYTHS ENGLISH 2  12) Who was your big crush in HighSchool? I FUCKED ALOT IN HIGH SCHOOL, BUT ONLY DATED 2 GUYS. 13) Would you say you've changed a lot since highschool? YEAH, I DONT SMOKE POT, I DONT CHEAT ON MY LOVER, AND I DONT HAVE TO SKIP SCHOOL ANYMORE 14) What do you miss the most about it? SKIPPING SCHOOL TO GO ON WILD ADVENURES, IT WAS FREE, THE POINT IN DOING SOMETHING EACH AND EVERY DAY. 22) Were you always late to class? LATE... HELLNO.. IF I WAS LATE, I JUST SKIPPED 23) Did you ever have to stay for Sat. School? NO SUCH THINK AT CHS 24) Did you ever ditch? MORE THEN I EVER DREAMED.. 25) When it comes time for the reunion will you be there? YES! I WANT TO SEE ALL THE KIDS THAT THOUGHT THEY WERE BIG SHIT TOP DAWG IN HIGH SCHOOL AND ARE NOTHINGS NOW ! THOSE KIDS THAT GOT PICKED ON I WANT TO SEE HOW MUCH THERE REALLY ACHIEVING IN THERE LIVES.. I'LL BE THERE! Current Mood: crappy Current Music: HALO 2 (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 13th, 2005
12:28 pm	Love: A deep Affection There are 6 types of love, which do you fall under?   Eros - sex is the most important aspect of erotic love. This type of relationship is quite intense, both emotionally and physically. The focus is on beauty and attractivness more than on qualities such as intelligence and sense of humor. Ludus - Ludus means "play" in Latin, and the ludic lover views love as a game. Ludic love does not require great commitment or feeling, for it lacks passion and intensity! It lasts only as long as the partners find each other entertaining or fun. Storage - Storage is a type of love that lacks passion and excitement. It develops over an extended period of time and often beings in friendship. Storgic lovers may have difficult time pinpointing that precise moment when they knew they were in love. For them, falling in love was a gradual process. Pragma -  Pragma lovers are extermely logical and practical in seeking a companion. They want a long-term relationship with an individual who shares their goals in life. If a person wants a relationship that does not require much effort or time, then he or she will search for a mate who is looking for the same thing. Pragmatic relationships seem to last longer than any of the others, perhaps becuase both parties enter with realisitc expectations - "with open eyes." Mania - This is the love that is often referred to as "romantic love" it exhibts extreme feelings, raging from high excitement and passion to deep depression. Manic lovers are oftern so concerned with losing there mate that they are unable to enjoy the relationship. Mania love is characteristically intense, obsessive, desperate, and painful. Manic relationships often appear out of control; the partners act impulsively and often get hurt. Mania love is full of excitement and intensity, but it reaches a peak and then quickly fades away. Agape - In this type of love the individual gives willingly and expects nothing in return. This type of lover can care for others without close ties; a deep relationship us bit becessary fir agapic love tp develop. Agapic lover always wants the other to be happy, even if it results in his or her own pain or unhappiness.   i think Chris and i fall under MANIA! Current Mood: amused (1 Comment |Comment on this)